It's Like this Cycle Never Ends

So I'm in that place again
The place I always put myself
I'm always after what I cannot have
And as hard as I try not to
I end up wanting it more with each passing moment

I've settled for the lesser things
That should bring me joy
But they're meaningless
Little trifles to distract my eye from the prize
Though it never lasts for long

Then I am back to square one
And I see him yet again
And yet again that dull knife twists
Pushes and tugs at my heart
No matter how hard I pray it never stops

Cycle after cycle
Wishing and praying to God that
I would no longer want this
Annoying myself because I
Keep complaining at a situation I put myself in

Because it is all me
I just won't settle for anything less
And the cycle continues....