my nanny peg

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one week left to live
my mother's mother
Francis Ivy May

the nurses feel bad
they gave you the flu
they think its their fault
the cancer is taking you
away from me so quickly
even though you were diagnosed
too late to do any good
its hard to believe
it was only about
two months ago
aunt sue called and told me
that you were doing "fine"
but that she would wait
for mum to call her
something she never does
unless there is something wrong
she doesn't want me to know about

uncle john went to see you yesterday
he had to walk out
you made him cry
he's your youngest
you told him to go away
that you had a good life
to leave you alone to die

a priest went to see you today
you made him cry too
you told him you weren't dead yet
to get the hell out of your room
you weren't ready to say
your last words yet
you told my aunts and uncles
to leave you the hell alone
you wanted to die in peace

its been three years since
I've been to seen you
and it hurts me to know
that might of been my last time
i got to see you on this earth
it hurts me to know
your half way around the world
you don't even have the energy
to answer the phone
so i cant even talk to you
on the phone anymore
i don't have the money
to go over there
either to see you
or be at your funeral

i guess i have to let you go
hell you made bombs in WWII
you have had a full life
you had five kids
Denis, Peter, Sue, mum, and John
you have ten grand kids
Tracy, Julie, Charlotte, Mathew, Chloe,
Sarah, me, Andrew, Paul, and Katie.
you have three great grand kids
Ricky, Nathan, and Ellie
you nursed your own husband
until he passed away in his sleep
more than ten years ago...
i know letting you go
is something i will have to do
but its still hard cause
i might not of seen you
very much in the time
we have had
but the time we spent together
will last me a life time


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when its your time


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