See that blade over there?
You can end your life with it now
You don't have to keep living...
You don't have to keep sheltering this pain.
(But... You can't...
If you do that
You will break her heart
Into a thousand glistening pieces
That belonged to you.)
Do you feel this gun in your hands?
Hold it to your head
And see the trigger?
Pull it.
You can end this now
Before it gets worse.
(But... You can't...
Because you can't see her cry
It would only cause more pain
And after you're gone
You can't be there to comfort her.)
What's this around your neck?
A noose?
But will you finally have the courage
To step off that chair
To end the life you never had?
(No,
You never will
Get it through your head.)
Will I be able to end it?
To end the torture?
To escape the pain?
To stop the suffering
That comes with this illness?
(No
I can't
Because she needs me here
And i will stay
As long as she loves me.)
(She will continue to be
The only reason i live.)
1/4/09
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XxYoru-OkamixX
A contest entry
- (First Contest!) The internal struggle of self by insideinsanity.
1250 points, ended January 4, 22 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
*awaits the critics*
Comments
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Very dark, very persuassive. The two-sides of the actual argument are presented so well, but they're so brutally honest with one another.
It seems as if the lure of destroying yourself becomes a sinister temptress, even as the reason to live is a bit degrading (almost calling you stupid in tone) by reminding you over and over (and apparently getting annoyed at it) that you still don't understand that she is the only reason you stay alive.
>> Don't kill yourself though.
Thank you for entering!
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ok..awesome write....but dont kill urself....even tho u say in this that thers only one reason ur stil alive.....and keep thinkin bout her ok.....and tell her ur true feelings....ur like a best friend to me....i wouldnt wana see u go....
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Thanks, Misti, you're an awesome friend. *hugs*
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