Ditch the ads, upload images and much more - upgrade today from 5.95/month!
Read • Contests • Groups • Learn • Forums • Store • Help
 

Take me back? (thoughts)

oh no im falling apart
how can i miss him so much!
i feel like i need him
i think i have a broken heart!

cant tell anyone
noone will understand
all alone i hold these thoughts
this was never what i planned

but i cant help but acknowledge
what i feel with him in thought
told everyone the things hes done
i should have hid being distraught

i feel like i need him
my body is screaming to be heard
i want him here beside me
i dont care how absurd!

im falling apart
but im finally of age
is that all he'll think of me
maybe that lust was just a stage

but i can only hope
though he now is so far
i once ingnored him
now he ignores me - its so bazaar

but would he ever take me back
ive gotten so fat and covered in scars
maybe i only miss him now that i cant have him
wishing as i lie beneath the stars

i thought id be happy without him
but that was such a mistake
what have i done, i need him back
this smile is such a fake!

im so lonely
I WANT YOU BACK
everyone says you only want one thing
but they should give you some slack!

at least you loved me
who'd of guessed
though they saw you like that
i know you at your best!

please come back
i think i need you
im falling apart but i need you
if only you knew!

but i guess i shold give up
its useless, theres no hope
if only in this lonliness
i can find a safe way to cope

i think ill pray that you will call
though i dont deserve you
and no one shall know
these feeling will only grow

please take me back
forget what they all know
theres a love ive hidden far too long
and that im finally ready to show!


~Madison~

    : , Your review:

    Comment Suggestion: What is your your first impression?
    • Line numbers  • Invite them to read
    : no Cost: 0 free left 0 points, You have (?)

Comments

  • guardian warrior
    January 3

    Edit | Reply
    In these matters we are given chances. Sometimes we never know how many we had when its all over. I used all my chances and now I am caught in a painful place. I have forgotten all that I felt that made me happy. My memories lost to me now(literally) But somehow it hurts to know that I won't get to feel that anymore. Now even if it hurts I can only watch and hope that she will be happy. I may one day be happy but it isn't what matters to me. I only want them to be happy. For that I will not hurt myself or beg for them because that would only make it harder on them. This poem sits heavy with me. Thank you for sharing what feels like only you feel.
    Guardian Warrior.


    • ImUrFadingMemory
      January 3
      Edit | Reply

      Thank you.

      thank you for your very nice comment! I know I am not the other one and I am sorry you feel similaryly.
      But when you said the part about 'chances'. i had a chance to not speak up but it was his chance to not hurt me and beat me. The restraining order, that i am sure is no longer in use is the only thing that keeps us apart. but i did have a chance. i never should have reported him even though my friends urged me to. beacuse i know he can change and he has. and i messed that up. now its not acceptable by anyone to be with him. *sigh* anyway not that you care, just venting.
      thanks again for your kind comment. it means alot.
      ~Madison~