suicide, silence,
fading into sleep,
quiet comfort in broken dreams,
baby we knew it wasn't worth it from the start,
we all knew this would break some hearts,
but we did it anyway,
now let's watch it fall away.
there's nothing left to make me stay,
so break me, let me fall away.
i'll take the razor,
hold it tight to my wrist,
draw pretty pictures
with bloody twists.
i don't want to see you,
as hurt as you are,
because it's my fault,
this is going to leave a scar,
if all i can do is live,
and hurt you,
then this isn't worth it anymore,
i'll leave you here to heal your heart,
but baby, i loved you from the start,
never forget that,
never let it go,
remember that, because i want you to know,
you meant more to me than anything,
but now life's taking it's toll,
when there's nothing left,
but pain in your chest,
and it hurts to hold on,
just let go.
fire the engine,
the bloods scent in the air,
but you'll never notice,
too broken to care,
my fault,
it's my fault you're there,
cold as the clay,
lying in the grave,
nothing left,
but emptiness in your chest,
it hurt to hold on,
so you let go,
it hurts to go on,
so i'll let go.
but i'll be next to you soon,
come this afternoon,
i'll lie with you there in the ground,
bled to death
to kill the ache in my chest,
waiting now for my body to be found.
it hurt to hold on,
so i let go.
Author notes
i'm so sorry. but it's hurting me more to hold on these days, it's not like anyone cares anyway.
A contest entry
- modern depression by Dangerousparable.
900 points, ended January 9, 13 entries
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i want the truth from you even if it kills me.
Comments
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Well, Rebecca, to tell you the truth, I think it's a great poem.
Now, let me tell you something. I don't know how old you are, but by the way you write, you must be about my age. If your loved one is no longer by your side, physically, I understand very well how it feels. You might feel hollow inside... but do keep in mind, that person will forever be with you. The love that you both shared will sustain the memories in which that person will live, coming back and forth to your reality as you remember him. But, I can tell you this: you have a whole life ahead of you, my dear. Let your feelings out... let them be free... only like this you will be able to go on. Don't close yourself in the memories of times that passed and won't come back... this will drown any possibility of healing... and your heart really needs it right now.
Hope you read this, Rebecca.
Just to let you know, I do care.
-Enid
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