The cuts on my thigh are fresh,
Thick and sticky,
Liquid hatred running down my leg,
I close my eyes, and lean back,
Adrenaline Rush,
blood pounds in my ears,
As it runs through my veins,
to my leg,
and out my wounds.
I feel it trickling down my leg,
a constant stream of warmth,
I run my fingers through it,
enjoy the feeling,
I rub my hands in it,
enjoy the feeling,
I get dizzy,
enjoy the feeling,
I try to stand and walk,
but I cant, Im hopeless,
I stagger, and try to stay awake,
but I fall, and the floor is spinning,
faster, and faster.
I try to find the wall, something lean on,
I can think straight,
and I see black dots,
blocking my vision.
I fall against the wall, I try to catch myself,
and my bloodied hands slide down the wall,
as I fall to the ground.
The razor drops from my hands,
and I cant see anymore, everything is black,
My mind is screaming.
There are too many burring thoughts,
I cant process them,
My eyes flutter, and my heart is racing,
then skipping beats,
its like a fluttering eyelash.
I cant stay here anymore,
I cant fight for something I dont want.
When Im gone just carry on,
dont mourn, rejoice.
A contest entry
- Cutters tell me why by Maili Knephthan.
400 points, ended January 15, 34 entries
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wow this was an intess poem very well writen i know this feeling all to well its not fun i know if you ever need a friend i will be here thanks for sharing your sercets and your poem god bless
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Line 24 & 33 have typos dear :]
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but instead it was my wrist
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Damn, this id good i love it....
good this reminds me of stuff I'm going through.
well done
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Yowza Cadybabii. I know exactly how you feel, but still having it described this way had my body twitching. So great!
~ToxicLove.
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Thanks!
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This happened to me one time, except for the dying part.. -
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You're welcome and holy crap. I'm glad you're still alive though.
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Thank you x]]
I came close to not being...
My best friend found me, and his rents are doctors, so he brought me home, my rents never even knew. -
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They'd probably die of a heartattack if they did know. Thank your friend for me babe.
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Aw, dude.
I know, but if they would promise to have a heart attack and die, I might consider doing it again and letting them find me x]
But, I will.
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Yeesh. xD You're welcome Cadybabii.
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*kisses cheek*
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x3 Awww!
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WOW THIS IS AMAZING! and i can relate to it 100% mostly this part "The cuts on my thigh are fresh,
Thick and sticky,
Liquid hatred running down my leg,
I close my eyes, and lean back,
Adrenaline Rush," cutting is a very scary thing sumtimes and very real...u have told a story very well with this poem
good job
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Aw, thank you!
Thats what I was trying to do..
I love your comments, babe <33 -
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ur welcome
good! tons more where this came from
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YAY!
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I have been in this place to the point where I really did want to die. But I didn't just blood running free. Good write. I enjoyed it and could feel each word. Thank you for entering
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Thank you so much!
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shit u cut urself! I dnt get cutters, but thts coz i hate pain. I can't even bring myself to bend my fingers back, and if i see someone do it i feel sick
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you may not get cutters but know this cutting is a way of releasing the inner pain it is liquid pain running out from our bodies to puddle to a surface or on a body part. It is difficult to explain but know it is an addiction like smoking or drugs or drinking.
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Well why add physical pain to mental pain? :-S the problem with me is that ive never been as depressed as the people who do cut themselves, and untill someone is they'll never fully understand :-/
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I couldn't rejoice. But it's still a good write.
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I could.
But thanks.
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Wow.
Mega intense. I hate that you cut though. I havent cut for two months now, having just been hospitalized and its a great feeling. You should seek help like I did. It really helps. And if not, know that things get better on their own anyway. <3
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Hmm..
I cut crazily for a while, then I get digusted with myself and dont for a long time.
Im feeling a relapse soon though.
Sadly.
Seek help? ha. Thats funny.
Im on my own, sweetheart.
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my christ... do you really cut yourself??
great poem... but it makes me kinda worried
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Yeah, well....sometimes.
I go through phase of cutting.
I cut crazily like the poem above, then I get disgusted and stop for a while. -
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you've gotta stop that, y'know? its not a good way to get rid of stress
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Pfft.
When you think of a better way, let me know. -
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write poetry like you are now, work out (like shadowboxing or some shit), exercise, turn to music, write music, perform music, get together with friends and talk to them, or TALK TO ME if you want.
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Oh please.
Like I'm not the computer enough...
Not to be like, mean or anything...but these kinda suck, bud.
I mean, tell this to any cutter and they will laugh at you.
Honestly, its not that simple.
Anyone who has cut has guts, and anyone who ever quit totally, has some GUTS.
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meh, I tried. why dont you tell me what's been going on? maybe I could... I dunno, try again.
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That was a stupid question.
I dont know myself.
Gawd, I find this whole "talking" thing pointless.
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that kind of thinking will not get you anywhere. I used to cut too. I'm suicidal. I'm depressed.
Stupid question? why would that be stupid? obviously something happened to make you so sad and angry, right?
The first step to knowing yourself is dissecting your thoughts and finding out where they came from.
Obivously I dont understand what you're going through, but if you help me I might be able to help you.
Why would you find talking pointless? The whole point of it is to help you. I found that by talking to people, I could understand myself better because I got feedback from other people. Sometimes other people's observations of you can help you understand yourself.
Come on, it cant hurt. Just give it a try.
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Im going to be straight up honest with you right now. Do not take offense. My first thought was:
FUCK.
THIS.
SHIT!
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fine. if you dont want help, then dont take it. its all good.
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