Once I finally found a man I fully loved and had faith in crushed me to bits; and every since that my life has been deep in the pits.
I understand a little because I kept things from him due to the extremities and thinking he could'nt understand, If he only knew how much it meant to me just to hold his hand...
My past isn't one that is easy to believe and I know that...sexuaul abuse, mental, and of course physical trauma...not just one person; my mother and father.
Films, hypmnotized and given valium since the age of 4 or 5 took my sanity and many other things like fear of speaking; if I did the punnishiment would be too hard...I would of rathe of taking just the beating.
This world is gettting more sick each day, and because of this I constintaly pray.
Watch your kids moods, behaviour all of their actions clearly; trust in that please....they will love you not hate you dearly.
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I can feel such saddness and a great fear. I can almost walk in the shoes of your life. So much torment and abuse, it's amazing you trust any at all. Every parent needs to stay close and involved with their children. I would rather put up with my sons friends here, than to send him to anothers home and have you know, what happen! It takes a lotofeffort to protect a child these days. AS I said you exhibit such strong emotions. Rose
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Reading between the lines, I have to wonder what kind of family did you grow up in...? You talk here about being hypmnotized and given valium since the age of four, and I thought my family was bad. Such pain you must have gone through, well I hope it is all behind you now and you write only of the past. And write you should continue to do as that way your writing will improve.
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thanks hun...
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no problem
I cant simply FEEL your poetry without replying! That would be rude; I hope all Is well with you....
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Good write. It always is good to express yourself and writing is good therapy. I wish you the best, Keep your head up. Thanks for sharing your emotions.
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