Winter

Oh I could be Anything
                          Everything
Shut up, sit down, and let me sing.
                  Full circles [mid-winter]
              the longest night is closer past than ahead.
Give me just...
              What???
Repentance? Sentiment?
        grammatical clarity and a structured sentence?
I havent got it for you
            nor would simple words do
                            even the brightest surely fail

I am done reading mail.

                      Past heart, present love, pretty little pedigree
              be longer winded sweet-thing
                            just a bit more arrogantly ugly.

Span out the space between
    we know you wont hide the hard places
              --face frailty--
                    Fuck fighting,
                let us embrace your disbelief.

Magic mindless moments
            telling me this is life
        dont you dare doubt
    you may not, must not
  or simply wont live without

            Your fault finding
                    fester ((better)) philosophy
        leaves only room for errors
 
Two raptors                                            in a spiral.
                        |Locked in for /death
Help me
Hurt me
spare my life
or i could \Save my breath

                        I dont know what im perserving
carrying negative weight up a steep hill.
  No one has answers here.
I cant see big pictures, or the future is just frightening-
but here- there is not meshing of wills
we stand on the top of empty bleachers
ill never know what you want
but im begging for the lightning.