I have never been a natural at anything.
Seems I have to sweat and struggle
for what I desire.
I think God finds it amusing
to watch me get no where.
I can envision him sitting in heaven
with all the angels hanging around
watching me screw up.
Laughing as I fail and fall,
an idiot dote in this life.
I can hear Jesus cackle
and look to Michele the arch angel
slap him on the back and say.
"See what that imbecile did?"
I guess my life was meant
to do nothing more than provide
entertainment for heaven
since they are probably bored
with all the piety up there.
At least I think I am noticed.
Thinking that someone is looking
down on me with a smile feels good.
There are many who think
nothing at all.
That is the saddest shame.



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