therapist,
this is not the first time i've used this as a beginning,
"i was young when this started,"
that's not an excuse
for shaving the cat,
the only one that kept the boys coming back
pouring me milk
singing me songs that were popular
the year my parents were born.
let me explain,
the first time i was touched i was nine,
"our father, who art in heaven,"
he was not blood, but that didnt stop him
from seeing mine, "forgive us our trespasses,
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
and lead us not into temptation".
the catholic church taught me
that it was okay for grown men
to touch small children
only it was supposed to be little boys
only it was supposed to be a priest
instead, it was me, and my priest
was a 46 year old drunk
who was engaged to my mother.
i cried, "wolf! wolf! wolf!"
the towns people laughed
at my stringy, lice-ridden, hair
hand-me-down clothes,
perfume trash, i was young when he started this.
it's legal now, for men to touch me
for me to baptise them in my faith
of open legs, 'please donate', uncommitted.
my family, painted the front door blue
all this sadness behind a dead bolt,
therapist: t h e r a p i s t:
the rapist.
Author notes
based on a true story. i was raised in a catholic church. the house still stands.. across the street. i did see a therapist. she smelt bad, i got to see her for free.. thanks to the church... she told me i was lying, dramatic. i'm 18 now.
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do what you do. it doesnt matter anymore. :] xxox - ♥
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enjoyed this. the way you put the prayer into the poem. religion at its best i suppose. im sorry this happened to you but i hope your stronger because of it. great write.
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usha baby, i love you. i know what you went through and i am glad that you let your art help you cope. you know you are one of my BEST friends and if you ever need anything i am here. great write. great friend.<3
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Wow, I'm sorry you had to go through it. The experience seems so vivid in this poem, I like the commentary and the quotes here. It's hard to comment on something like this, it's written so beautifully. Thank you for this entry.
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therapist- the rapist. wow. never really saw that one, but serious kudos for the connection. I'm sorry to hear that this happened to you, but as always, the way you wrap words around your fingers never ceases to be amazing, amaze me, therapist in point.
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i love this, you know i love everything you write. especially the part where you make the catholic prayer apply towards your situation, that was clever. you told me you liked brutal feedback but i have none for this. it was beautiful and i'm glad you're back doll.
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