I Am My Own Person

For years I have relied on my parents.
I've asked them for things I don't need
and I've asked them for things I do need.
They have always been there for me.

My parents buy my clothes
and they buy my food and drinks.
But I have to learn to live without them
because in a few years I'll move away.

For years I have relied on others
to bring me up to patch
on information I may or may not need
but either way I could find it myself.

My friends have bought me gifts
and have helped me up when I fall.
They help heal my wounds
and they help me get through my homework.

For years I have relied upon
the leaders of my church.
I have listened to their testimonies
and used what they have said for mine.

Soon, I know, I won't be able to do that.
I have to find for myself what is mine.
I have to figure my life out
without the help of others.

For years I have looked up to people
and they have looked up to me.
I cannot rely upon their presence,
not every minute of every day at least.

I am learning to do things for myself
and I've learned not to spend money
on things I don't need.
It's just a waste when I do.

For years I have relied upon myself
to get through this love.
This guy hurt me so deeply
and no one has been there to help me.

None of my friends were there for me.
None of them have ever understood.
I love him, I always have and always will.
But there is one thing that doesn't make sense.

For years I have relied upon the people in my life
to help when I need it
to buy me things when I want them.
And for years, almost all of them have complied with my wishes.

So technically speaking,
if I have so often relied up these people,
how could I have gotten throught this hurt without them?
I shall tell you.

For years I have relied upon my friends,
thinking they would be there when I needed them.
They ignored me in my darkest hour,
and so in return I completely ignored them.

I should not have been able to get through this
but I did because I willed it to be so.
Just as a bee is not supposed to fly, but does,
I have loved and lived through it...

I lived throught it
and I still love him  to death.
I lived through all of it
without relying on anyone to help me up.