Dear James

Bef0r when I w0uld be al0ne sleepin in bed I w0uld sleep with 0ne eye 0pen never felt safe. But at night when I lay in y0ur arms 0r can feel y0ur b0dy near me I feel s0 safe.
& when y0u n0t in my bed. I t0ss and turn all night w0rried ab0ut y0u and if y0u 0k cause I kn0 if y0u aint h0me. Y0u 0ut in them pr0ject runnin them st. Them streets that d0nt give a fuck ab0ut y0u. Them streets that aint n0thin nice. Y0u d0nt mean shit t0 them streets. But y0u already kn0 that.. But d0 y0u kn0 I gives a fuck ab0ut y0u... I'm nice t0 y0u (s0metimes).. & Y0u Mean the W0rld t0 Me..
S0 when I'm t0ssin and turnin at night I w0nder if all this shit is w0rth it..
What ab0ut 0ur plans.. Haveing a family.
I can't d0 that with 0ut y0u. I wanna have y0ur s0n. But I d0nt wanna bring a child int0 this w0rld t0 be father less. I want him t0 have a male r0le m0del in his life. & y0u can't d0 that if y0ur in jail 0r dead.
Then I think naw Jay jay 0kay. & I g0 t0 sleep.
What I'm supp0se t0 think? That y0u l0ve me! 
Hahahaha. L0ve d0nt d0 that. L0ve d0nt hurt y0u.. And if sum10 was t0 happn t0 y0u I w0uld be in s0 much pain. Y0u can't even imagine.

My life was a mess and y0u kn0w that. Bef0r y0u came int0 my life I didn't think happiness was f0r me..
A family. Kids. Happy. L0ve... n0t ME.
But then y0u came int0 my life and we wanted t0 get away fr0m every0ne. And we wanted a baby. And we wanted t0 be s0 different fr0m 0ur families... WE.
WE means tw0 pe0ple.

I l0ve y0u James L. Kelly.

N0w & F0rever..
Stephanie Vizcarra.