My mind was echoing with words and things you'd said,
All the moments and actions reverberation along the walls,
Just replaying over and over in my mind
You're a broken tape recorder of pain and guilt,
Stuck in the same loop, on the same line
Everybody says to let you go and stop blaming myself,
But I just keep taking you inside me farther,
Burying you under my skin like a deadly parasite
Half of me finds it's self wishing this egg would hatch,
Just wake up and eat me whole from the inside out
I live in a world full of mirrors now,
Smashing myself through them,
Trying to hurt myself and always staring at you
Sometimes I'm not sure what even gets me through the night...
But sometimes childhood dreams come knocking,
A friendly face with a smile,
I'll get so caught up I'll forget for just a little while
You know, when I'm running and playing,
Sometimes I think of you,
I wonder if you're proud of me and ok
Sometimes I'll smile and grin, try to show off,
Flex my muscles and tell you one day I'll be on top,
Just you wait, just you wait...
A contest entry
- Devastatingly Depressing. by a.changed-soul..
1130 points, ended January 5, 23 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Comments
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Hmm...
This was brilliant..It was sad, painful.
"Everybody says to let you go and stop blaming myself,
But I just keep taking you inside me farther,
Burying you under my skin like a deadly parasite"
You should never blame yourself..even though we all have this tendency to do so..
..I'm one of those people too.
"Just you wait, just you wait..."
Thank-You very much for entering,
best of luck.
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Thank you. :}
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Wickid ^^ I really like this. An excellent write. Good luck in the comp...
~Lae, Feu Tempete
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Thanks Lae. :}
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