Unhealthy Obsession

You walk through the door
I loose all discretion
My mind not mine anymore
Overrun by an unhealthy obsession

You stand there and speak
While I cringe at what you say
Still I feel you are making me weak
What shall I do to cause a delay?

You hurt me, I forgive you
The terrible things you do
Things I vowed, to never ensue
But still  I let go, out of the blue

You're so self centered,
Yet you possess certain charms
My heart you have entered
I hate you, but still I want you in my arms

I lie in bed thinking
Of the times you were there
I feel like Titanic, sinking,
I still catch the scent of you drifting in the air

I hate you and love you
What more can I do?
Damn you! Yes, Damn you!
I don't have a clue

Disappointment, elation
Doubt, hope and fear
All these in creation
when your aura's too near

I know I shouldn't do this
I know and see the truth
Why do I keep myself at war?
Yet every-time I see you, it's like I've never seen you before

Oh God! Give me strength
I need to get myself right
I have been toiling at length
I'm afraid I might end up losing this fight

I need to stop this
I can't bare more to say
I mean my goodness!
You're not even my way...



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