Memories locked deep inside
created many tears
as I held on to love once known
I could not let them go...
With each new man more hope renewed
that he'd be like the one
I knew so many years ago
that chained my heart to his...
I guess I was in love with a memory of one so long ago.
I've seen him now, looked in his eyes
and now I wonder what
I saw in him so long ago
that kept me bound to him...
I've heard the voice of one held tight
for many, many years
but am I finding now the voice
not so very dear?
Could I be letting go of cherished memories?
Am I now traveling down the road
that will lead to release?
I wonder if I was in love with just a memory?
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I have had feeling very similar to these.... you have expressed it well and it is also for me like looking upon pages of the past... Very well written~
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The first part of this is like a page out of a book of my life past. I am thinking that if given the chance to hear the voice of who I thought to be the true love of my life would leave me disenchanted. Maybe to be free from obscure memories would keep me from revisiting shadows that no longer exist.
Nonetheless, a wonderful piece of soulful poetry.
Hope you had a nice Christmas, and hope your New Year is blessed.
Always a friend,
Sam
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Mel, I have been conversing with my ex-wife of now 25 years. I e-mail her daily at work and we talk of memories that differ so much that I am curious if we lived in the same house. Jen has asked me to go with her and my oldest daughter to see my son in Knoxville next month. I am actually working on a piece that may never see fruition about her and I locked in a room together for two days with no windows, TV, radio, and a locked door. If I finish it I want some kind of resolution to be the product of our 7 years together. We are friends and have been since the divorce, but there are always haunting questions. The more we talk the more I realize we never really took the time to know each other. We were kids in an adult world. Still I can't let the memories go. Huh, see how well your poem works, it got me. RC
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Maybe This is What I Asked You About...
It seems to me I often remember the supposed good parts of such memories, making them appear better than it was. I know I often do that. It always leaves me feeling discontent with where I am now, and I think that's an affront to the Lord.
Maybe that's why I'm convicted of the verse in Philippians to forget that which is behind me, and press on toward the upward call of Christ.
Maybe the New Year will bring good things for you and me. After all, the Lord is good!
Love ya, girl! Hope all's well!
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Thoughtful searching questions my friend, sometimes these questions are rhetorical, sometimes they remain unanswered. I hope you find peace in your quest for an answer.
Well written poem, write on my friend.
Brother Dennis
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Many times, obsession is mistaken for love. Obsession is fueled by passion and need, and is always cloaked in illusion; true love is empowered by trust, generosity and sacrifice, and is eternal.
Sometimes, the fire must subside before we can see obsession for what it is. That requires the passage of time.
I know, for I have walked this path before and I recognize the landscape.
Stay strong!
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Interesting comment... but I think it is a comment based on wisdom and one I needed to read. The man I wrote of... I've dreamed, for more than twenty years, that he would come back. I held onto a few memories of him and I. Maybe it is as you say... an obsession. You know, now that he's back... I am so different. The overwhelming 'feelings' that I just knew would flood over me haven't! I dunno... it's just not what I thought it would be but I am not devastated and that seems so weird to me.
Thank you so much for your comment and for taking the time to be honest and real with me. You've helped! Maybe now I can put the past behind and grab hold to the future!
~Melissa
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wonderfully written
such sadness and emotion, so beautifully expressed. rythem and flow rich and full.
Great Job sweet sis.
*Go with God* dear one,
Valerie
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Following up on your last poem I see....as always your ability to express deep and personal thoughts in such ways that the reader can feel and relate is what keeps me coming back to your page hoping to find another gem like this one. Excellent writing Melissa.
Rory
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His sis.
A beautiful write. Heartfelt and cathartic. You express your thoughts and feelings of your long ago love with depth, poignant memories of sadness on the verge or release. Excellent closing line sums up beautifully what you've come to learn and express in your poem. Well penned.
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Well worded and for some reason, angst did not take over and hide this poem's beauty. just good writing!
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Hey Melissa,
Been way too long since I dropped by. But this is a great write, sad, but also a sign of taking forward steps in your life.
To see and hear that which was held so dear, only to allow it to slip away, never easy, but a release you may need, to see what lies ahead. Brilliantly worded and formed, well done.
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