The Worst of it All...

I can't take this anymore.
My heart is beginning to give up on me,
and I don't blame it.
If I hear your name,
I’m filled with joy,
then it is all taken away,
knowing that you won't talk to me anymore.
I see a picture of you,
and my eyes gleam with happiness,
only to be taken over by tears of sorrow.
Please just notice me.
Please acknowledge what we went through,
Please acknowledge that I love you.
The worst of it all isn't that we aren’t together anymore,
it's that you’re trying to forget it all.
You’re erasing me from your life,
and that’s more pain than anyone can endure.
My lungs refuse to breathe
whenever you turn your head from me.
My mouth refuses to ever speak again
whenever you don't answer the phone.
The worst of it all isn't that you’re with someone else,
it's that you don't even love them.
I want to die every time I think of what I did.
My body wants to shut down forever,
and I don’t think I can fight it for long.
Your ever looking-down eyes
are the reason I can't look at myself in the mirror.
I reign as king amongst the screw-ups.
The worst of it all isn't that I'm in pain,
it's that you are ignoring it.
Please forgive my trespasses,
though I never will.
I don't deserve your absolvings.
I don't deserve happiness.
I don't deserve you.
Truth be told,
I never did.
The worst of it all isn’t that we’ll never be together,
it’s that that’s the way you want it.
My ever longing for you to be happy,
will make all that a dream come true for you,
yet a nightmare taking over for me.
I don’t want you to forget me,
but its too late for that.
I don’t want it to be like this,
but its too late for that.
I want you to love me,
But its too late for that...
There was never any love returned from you.
I want you too look at me with those eyes again,
but its too late for that.
Its too late for me…