Why can't I love you all the time?
Why is it that sometimes I know you're the one
and then the next moment I know you are not the one?
In my heart I know you love me
The way you say my name, the way you smile at me
The way you hold me in your arms and the way you talk
I know it to be true
But why can't my feelings be the same towards you?
And I know I love you too
But I don't know in which way
I've asked God why can't I be sure
Why can't I know this
And the fact that I hurt you kills me
I never wanted to hurt you, Nathan, I promise you that
But I have to know.
I can't tell you those three words if I am not sure of them
At least I'm not sure if they mean the same to me
As they do to you. And it's not fair to you
I told you I wasn't good enough for you.
I told you and still you stuck by me
Look what I've done, I've destroyed you
And saying I am sorry will never fix it
It's fine if you never forgive me
But you can't keep going on the way you are
It hurts me to see you in so much pain
You tell me you aren't, but remember I know you
I can see right through that lie
Admit it to me, you're dying inside
And if you want to know the truth, I am too
Not knowing has been killng me for a long time
And I promise you I'll have your answer as soon as I can
But please don't be depressed. You say you have
Great hope for the future, well then trust it
Trust in what tomorrow will bring.
Author notes
Something I'm going to send to my ex boyfriend.
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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Its a little rough but I am also sensing that because of its roughness that's what made it a poem, raw emotion and passion. Its a good write for the situation and I believe one day you'll reach down and find the button that helps you keep creating excellant poetry. Keep it up!
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awwww...this the best bad poem ive ever read... its so feelingy and... im glad u dont live a lie just cause of him... i know id rather have the truth than something incincere..and sometimes the hardest thing 2 believe is the truth.. both rk lyrics btw
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Honest
So sad, It makes me feel the confusion and pain it is causing you. They say that absence makes the heart grow fonder. Maybe you will find out through the absence.
But at least you are honest enough to tell the truth and not try to hide it to spare someones feelings, which in my opinion, will only do more damage in the long run.
Emotionally riveting write. Nathan happens to be the name of one of my ex-boyfriends before I got married. Kinda made me think a little of him, except he broke up with me!
ha ha,
Peace and love to you!
CP
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Thank you so much for the wonderful comment! Yeah it hurt telling him the truth but I had to do it and now that it's been almost a month since the break up, I'm feeling a lot better. Hope you had a great Christmas and and awesome New Years! -Liz
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