This year the house is bare.
At least for me.
I do not know if someone else is there,
I do not know if my room is now theirs,
Last i saw the rooms were dark, furniture
either broken or boxed.
There was no fire lighting up smiling faces,
there was no warmth.
This year I won't be running down those stairs,
the christmas tree and fairy lights,
well, they're stuffed in the attic in a black bin bag.
There will be nothing neatly wrapped, with my name on a tag.
Perhaps there is a new family, with children and smiles,
maybe their tree is up...in place of ours.
They can gather round, and open presents together,
eat a big christmas dinner, leaving the torn paper across the floor.
Although there is a tree where i am,
There is no tinsel, and no repeats on the tv,
there is no smell of familiar food.
These faces that stare back at me,
dont compare to what used to be.
What was home for so long, I now have only
memories of.
So if i close my eyes, all i can see is the last time i was there,
none of my laughter, none of my cheers,
just everytime i was scared and fighting off tears.
If a new family is there, and they put up their tree,
maybe in a different place to where we used to,
they'll never know about how it affects me.
I'm in a new country, with people i barely know,
trying not to think of anything,
as i'm covered in snow.
Author notes
i wrote this... just off a whim really. just kinda never knew last christmas would be my last one at 'home' wish id made more of an effort because ti wasnt so great. now my moms left so for the first time she wont be here with me. and because she left my brother and i arent spending christmas togetehr hes alone in england with relatives we hardly know, and im here in sweden, with our father who neither of uus really know. i dont know which one of us feels more alone, but my only real wish for christmas this year .. would be that he was here with me.
i didnt originally write this for the contest. but i thought it fitted it well.
A contest entry
- What does christmas mean to you? by moderndayvampire.
700 points, ended January 6, 13 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Winter prewrites by Violinstrings.
625 points, ended January 17, 41 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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good
nicely done good way to mention winter with the last line I am covered in snow -
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Well this honestly is more the way i feel every winter. As of something thhat happened, but based on winter time still the same, thanks for the comment anyhow
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torn from home and family leaves a empty place within the heart and missing things such as sight, smells and laughter can weigh so heavy upon the heart...sending you a really big hug and well wishes for a much better new year
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Thank you very much for the comment and such. its much appreciated =)
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very interesting
it is on a personal level but with all the separation of parents and symblings with divorce
many people can relate to this.
it is done with good details that anyone can say it is me too not just her
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Thank you for the comment, it is not quite about divorce... and i suppose those who dont know me really wouldnt quite know what i really meant... Thanks for the comment, much appreciated.
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Very sad.
My heart aches for you. What a difference a day makes in our lives. You made me feel what you are feeling. Very good.
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I've critiqued this off the website, but I'm going to go on and post something here.
I'm really loving the imagery in the second stanza.
I hope you have a good Christmas.
Good luck in the contest
and Merry Christmas!
- Aly
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awww
very powerful,i think you have broken my heart,this is exactly as i wished,though it has come at a cost, good work,and good luck.
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This poem is enough to make a granite statue shed copious tears...oh, man, this poem broke my heart. You understand language and poetry very well, a most powerful poem (I will pray for you and your brother.)
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Thank you very much for the comment =( greatly appreciated.
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Ghostly
You sound like someone who's had the carpet pulled out from under them. Like a ghost watching new people move into her house.
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Strong and honest, touching write. Christmas is a very challenging time for a lot of people. I wish you peace and a happy new year.
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Great write. I often pass my grandparents home when I go back to my home town and feel those feelings.
What was home for so long, I now have only
memories of.
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awesome!!!!
i thought it was really good.
it was as if i was there in the poem=]
you did a great job=]
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