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Laying on my back, gazing at the white ceiling
Thinking about the disastrous events that have occurred
Over my monstrous year
Tears falling silently down my face.

Taking the blade what lays by my side
Looking at the sharpened metal, reflecting my tears
Placing the cold steel against my flesh
I close my eyes, wishing to end it all

Then suddenly my lips curl into a smile
Soft and sweet, stopping my leaking eyes
I drop the blade onto the ground
And my hands pull up to my chest.

My lips open and a smile shines through
Teeth gleam with a long forgotten happiness
I open my sparkling eyes, once lost and lonely
Now to reveal excitement and joy

My shattered heart from the loss of so many
Lost and rusted with darkness, remaining from the unbearable pain
Now blooming like the blossom trees in the reincarnating spring
The broken pieces fusing together in a tight, loving embrace

My mind, once trapped in its dark, impossible maze
Unravelled the twists and turns to reveal a silver road
The icy darkness lifting to reveal the warm rays of light
Flowing rapidly though my torn body, healing every broken piece.

From the beginning of the year heartbreak and disasters have reigned
Replacing the light with darkness, the love with hate and the heart with loneliness
Pushing the happy smiles and the laughter aside,
Frowns, tears and cries taking over instead.

But the thought of the one day towards the end of the lonely year
The light taking back its place and standing ground, battling with the darkness
Swords flashing, sparking with activity, electricity, excitement,
Fighting over the emotions, creating the same effect.

Excitement, happiness and love are the main emotions I feel,
The light reigning victorious over the dark and still continuing to fight
The warmth flows rapidly though my body, conquering all the cold, heartless feelings
Dethroning the negative and the positive takes the crown.

Closing my eyes again, a small laugh escapes my lips,
Smiling so greatly that my jaws begin to ache
Looking at the calender my eyes sparkle again
A happy, excited whisper passing my lips like a gentle breeze

"The day everything changes is drawing near,
My heart races, almost bursting from my chest in excitement,
All the dark thoughts and memories fading away, leaving only this prediction,
I predict everything will be perfect and my heart will be complete once again."