Her final goodbye

She silently cries,
Inside of her head,
No real tears to see,
Just blank numbness instead.
But inside she's distraught,
Cant fight one more day,
The pain she feels inside her ,
Has eaten her sole away.
Gone, there's nothing left,
As she cries empty, silent tears,
Left all alone,
Left to confront all her fears.
She has no hope left,
It's never coming back,
The world around, just watches laughing,
As this poor pathetic girl is about to crack.
It's to late to help her,
She has no strenght left to fight,
She is falling into a deep dark hole,
Can no longer see the light.
So stop, no one should help her,
It's to late, just say good bye,
She has lost all faith in the world,
Even tears she can no longer cry.
The world treated her badly,
For all her sins she made,
For being so bad and dirty,
The price she has now paid.
The consequences of her badness,
Have taken it's toll so strong,
And she can no longer fight the battle,
Of always being wrong.
She is so scared to die,
But even more scared to live,
She will draw up all her courage,
Satisfaction to them all she'll give.
She will let the pills englof her,
Draw out all the bad inside,
Then wait until it's over,
Then she will no longer have to hide.
She never wanted it to be like this,
But no other option has she got,
She can not live one more second,
Watch her sole continue to rot.
She wants to say good bye,
But doesnt have the strengh,
To see more pain in her poor mothers eyes,
Would take away any breath she has left.
She wanted to be happy,
But that emotion never came,
Its now 8 whole years later,
And her abuse still feels the same.
So she will hold on the her one last piece of control,
Control of when she dies,
Will choose to end it today,
Will use her last defence device.
Now she must pay the consiquences,
Of all that she went through,
She only has her self to blame,
Now she must do what she has to do.
Her heart is shattered in pieces,
To many to ever put back,
You can cover over a problem,
But it will always leave a crack.
She just wanted to be normal,
And not to have this pain,
But that will never happen,
She will never leave this rain.
So as she cries her silent tears,
Remaniscing on the past,
Just remember one thing,
This poem will be her last.