No relief

After all that we've been through and promised
you still sit there and accuse me of being just like everyone else.
Just yesterday I felt you were the only one I could truly trust,
yet now I wonder if all along I've been wrong to see it that way.
Maybe it was to much to expect from someone younger,
but dammit you're my only brother.

After all the shit we weathered you still view me with contempt?
Are you serious with this? This is how you truly feel?
Brothers in arms, brothers in blood, I guess even brothers just isn't enough.

I guess what I want to say is that I expected more from you in this way.
I've got no friends, might as well have no mother, depressed dad, and now I wonder about my only brother.
Maybe I'm going overboard, it might be a faze, but until you decide I've got no other.
The world spins and the dawn fades. The day comes and shadows shade.
I'm alone again and have to say, its not a relief in any way.