The end of the beginning, the beginning of the end
All things fade to nothing when you're deep inside my skin
But without you I am nothing, my razorblade, my cure
You give me strength to carry on, a hope that can endure
You hurt me, yet you set me free; you fix me and you break me
But reality is much more cruel than any place you take me
Of all the ones who hate me, the ones who know me best
You're the only one I push too hard, and the only one I test
And not just you, blade of mine, but fists and brick walls too
All of you are special because you're so good at what you do
And in the mirror I hit myself for all the ugliness that shows
until my eyes are blackened and blood trickles from my nose
Then I'll nurse my wounds, for though no one else can see
All I ever seem to do is bleed and bleed and bleed.
Veins like branches from a great tree connected to my heart,
A great highway to my core that I want to tear apart
Oh God, Oh Devil, Oh Nature; tell me what I've done
It seems I've come unraveled, I've lost the strength to run
I believe I'll do now what I knew I'd do before,
I take twenty aspirin, then I take twenty more
I fill up the bathtub and get in wearing all my clothes
After I slit my wrists, I sit and watch it flow
"Oh, the things I'll never see, and the people I'll never meet,"
I think as the water laps against my feet.
I feel myself sink lower, raise my head withthe strength I can find
I realize I want to breathe, but it's too late to change my mind.
A contest entry
- cutting, depression, suicide, and pix (chex it owt.)XF by redhanded.
550 points, ended December 23, 2008, 19 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - misery loves company... by nobodys-girl.
700 points, ended January 18, 92 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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so i started to copy lines that i liked when i realized i would be putting the entire poem here. my razor was my best friend for the longest time...and i understand what you ment when you said brick walls and fists work to. anything works when you need it to. i even went as far as trying to kill myself with aspirin. so basically i could relate to this entire poem. thank you so much for entering my contest and best of luck.
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I understand completely. I have slit my wrist and taken aspirin (at the same time). It didn't work, obviously, but the point is this: The thing I love about this website is that it teaches all of us that we are not alone. I've been here for a little over a week, I think, and it has helped me so much. I've made friends and have learned that I'm not the only one with scars... inside and out.
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I'm crazy excited to have won! Thankyou so very much! I look forward to future collaboration.
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there is a great rhyme in this poem and well i would have to completely agree with the person who commented before me good job and great write. Merry Chirsmas keep up the good work.
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Thankyou.
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This was super good. I usually don't like poems that rhyme, but this really got to me. You have a great write here, and the last two lines definitely bring it all together. The only thing I would change would be these lines:
"I fill up the bathtub and get in wearing all my clothes
After I slit my wrists, I sit and watch it flow"
I kind of stumbled over it, it just doesn't fit right to me. Other than that, this poem is amazing
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I agree...
About the line. I stumbled a bit writing it, actually. It's difficult to write off the top of my head when I usually spend a lot of time on revision, but I'm proud of this one and think that it taught me that I should write more ofter from the top of my head rather than putting too much thought into it. Thankyou very much.
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wow.....emo poem but......its friggin amazing!!!!!!!!i love it...and i bet lots of other people love it too........
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omg such a great write! a great flow, a over all great idea. and a exellent take on the prompt!
best of luck to you in this contest and in the future
and thanks so much for your entry.
andi
(redhanded)
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