My turn!

This is forev..er. 


Im losei..ng.
Im lost.
Im afrai..d.
I dont care to live.
I dont much care to love anymo..re.
Im gone.
Fadin..g befor..e onlly.. mysel..f.
I want to sleep...
I want to dream.. and never.. wake.
My hope is all but gone.
Screa..ming for help!
Why cant you hear me?
Why does no one care?
Why do you lie to me!
Im so far away!
Im fadin..g.
A chang..ing man i am.
For the bette..r,..you would.. love to think..!
My hands.. are tide!
Why do i hide it.
Run run run!

I ask nothi..ng of anyon..e, dont read this dont comme..nt what dif does it make,..you see me for me i spill.. my guts time after.. time yet I am left to deal with it by mysel..f.
Leavi..ng my mind,..heart.. and soul on displ..ay for all of you, yet its such a waste...I thoug..ht many times.. yes i shoul..d have been abort..ed,..my mothe..r shoul..d have liste..nd to the ones who told her to do so.
What am I hear for to searv..e as a examp..le for all of life,..of how not to be,i wear a mask when i can yet the true me bleed..s threw...
Runin..g has got me nowhe..re,..falli..ng has got me every..where.....Trust.. me,I dont trust.. you...many words.. are said day in and day out...The liars.. are in your phone.. in your life,.. in your bed,..why do I onlly.. see them...Run run run i can not run anymo..re.

Frien..ds ,..famil..y,..lover..s,..hater..s they have began.. to blend.. to one to me. if you canot.. see were my heart.. and mind are then,..you dont know me at all...ive praye..d ive secre..tly tried.. to put love in my life Ive faile..d,..ive faile..d you.
Soon i will chang..e it all i will sleep.. forev..er,..runni..g no more screa..ming no more cryin..g no more,..i surre..nder.
the door shuts.. behin..d me on a life i was never.. ment to live...This is the end i saw it comin..g befor..e i start..ed. no one will be broke..n heart..ed but me...Looki..ng for answe..rs but never.. sepea..ratin..g answe..rs from lies...Now im force..d to make the moves.. for mysel..f...Exsha..usted.. i saw it comin..g i fough..t i did...I screa..med cried..,and yet it was in vein.
Use me now pleas..e use me so you might.. stop someo..ne,..from being.. me,..so you might.. stop yours..elf from losei..ng all hope... My last hope my last praye..r is when i crumb..le my angel.. my lord will show me how to go on! In my heart.. i do desir..e to live to be happy.. to breat..h and chang..e mysel..f and the world...Bryce