The anger soars through her body, and the sadness over takes her mind,
even though she knows no real way to handle this,
so she pulls out the razor that she keeps tucked away under
her bed, and rips through her skin with it.
Right across her forearm she carves a pretty
little cut;
a pretty little slice threw her very own innocent flesh.
Every cut on her body sends her pain right to the spot,
distracting her from what's really going on. .
She doesnt know any other way of controlling her emotions;
knows no other way of dealing with the pain, the sorrow,
the misbelief of her very own young life.
Blood crawls down her arm
like a caterpiller crawling down a tree branch.
She watches the blood in dissapointment.
She knows cutting herself is "socially unacceptable" as her mother calls it;
she knows one day she could "cut too deep" as her mother also says..
More and more blood goes running down her arm,
staining her clothing,
allowing her body to over come with her own physical pain,
all to over power her own emotional pain,
and creating yet [ another ] dark pink scar for people to ask about.
But she just cant stop the cutting...
she cant "throw away the habit" now,
because its more than just that.
She's allowed her own mind
to now become addicted to creating those little pink scars. . .
Author notes
Although I've been "cut-free" for over a year, I struggled with it for four years before that. Even though I havent cut in such a long time, I still know the hardships of it, so..
THINGS *NEEDED* IN AUTHOR NOTES - Just for this contest.
- I began cutting when I was about 13 years old, after I was raped. As I began cutting more and more things happened in my life that devestated me, so I kept on cutting. I'm 18 years old now, and I just stopped cutting about a year and a half ago, with no slip ups so far.
Option 5: Cutting.
A contest entry
- Dark, cutting, suicide, sadness, depression by stargardt13.
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I'm loving the imagery in this poem. I also like the explanation. It's simple. Not too wordy nor complex. You do it because it distracts you from things you don't or think you can't deal with. And over the years of doing it, it has become an addiction. Nice. Very good work.
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"She doesnt know any other way of controlling her emotions;
knows no other way of dealing with the pain, the sorrow,
the misbelief of her very own young life."
These lines are so strong and in their own way give clarity to your own personal healing....a triumphant and cathartic recognition of self!
A fabulous write!
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Thanks so much!
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Wow. The imagery, overall in this poem is enough to give me chills. It's very awesome
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Well, I have a background in cuttin myself, and I will say this was the best representation of what it's like that I've read on here. I haven't cut in two years, but I do remember every time I see those scars what was going through my mind at the time. The use of the 'little pink scar' line is very effective. To most people, it doesn't sound as menacing as it does to those of us who are recovering cutters. I really appreciated that you didn't take this with an idea of overcoming cutting but instead wrote it through the eyes of someone who still cuts. It makes those who still cut feel less judged about it, that was a very nice touch. This is a perfect poem, beautiful and sad, which to me always makes the best poetry. Very good job, I enjoyed this immensely.
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Thank you so so much! This comment made me feel so great about what I wrote. I really didnt know how powerful it came out to people, but I'm glad you enjoyed it so much. I'm also really glad to hear that you havent cut in two years. Thats truly something to be very proud of!
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also proud that you can confess this.
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Thank you very much.
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great job, discribes me.
wow we have a lot in comin
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This was very good. I'm very proud of you for not cutting for over a year! I still struggle not too, and most of the time i lose that battle. I also know a few of my friends who have stopped and are doing really well with it so i can very well relate to how hard it is to stop. I am so glad you shared this poem with me and can write about the hardships one has to go through in dealing with not only cutting but trying to stop cutting. Thank you for sharing with poem with me and entering it in my contest good luck.
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Thank you so so much! I'm glad to hear that atleast you attempt to try to stop and things like that. I wish you the absolute best in dealing with it!
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WOW! I know what that feels like b/c i still struggle with it even though i dont do it any more but good luck and keep writting
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