Something seems off...

No pain in my chest
and I don't have a head ache
but I feel a few parts to be lacking.

I don't understand

Pushing people away

in hopes of not getting hurt

yet they flock to me unannounced.

Pressed smiles belies what's underneath

As I live my daily life

I notice little changes in me,

like the need to play nice with others.

Why do I do this?

My mind can't fathom

a need so ridiculous

to where I become automatic.

Author notes

Some times I really wish to tell off my family members. I get so close to doing it and then I walk away fumming. There is this want to be a family yet I don't want the one I have. *sigh*

In a list

Stopping the Noise • next in list

What to do in an insane world?

Comments

By me, right now

Adding your comment:
lowercase prelude
December 29, 2008
Edit | Reply

Great write
and I hope for the best with you and your family situation
Lagrimas
December 19, 2008

Edit | Reply

Hey now
I hope you aren't including me in that statement!!! It's normal to want family, and it's totally understandable to not want ours... lol

Nice write sis, short sweet and to the point. Good word choice, and nice structure. You're coming along rather well.