Goodbye, Christine...

I don't think of you as much as I should.
Sometimes I Can't think about the past.
Your past...
Too much time looking Fowards, I guess.

But I just want you to know,
That I do
still remember you.
My Childhood Sweetheart...

I still remember
the first time we met.
The first day of school...
You pressed your warm lips against mine.

!!!

A Dizzying Shock!
"What the Hell?!"
I Scream in my head,
as a flush of Humiliation and Rage burns in my cheeks.

Drawing my hood up,
I bow my head,
Hiding my crimson embarrassment
from my giggling Mum.

I hated you for that.
I didn't even know your name... Wondering... Why?
But I promised myself something that day...
To stay the Hell away from you.

I still remember
your silly little birthday party,
that my Mum FORCED me to go to!
With your Annoying girly smile and how you flicked at your Stupid golden hair.
... and how you clung onto my arm, kissing me at the door.

I kept pushing you away,
but you just kept coming back...
"What the Hell do you want from me?!"
... I guess I was glad you came back. (Quietly)

I still remember
that day on the playground,
when that boy threw rocks at you...
and so I punched him, and threw him into the pond.

You didn't like that,
I remember.
So I should have been Pleased...
No... empty.

So I dragged myself over
to you,
And for the first time in my life...
I Apologised.

- It all ended when Berten came into the picture, though.
You chose to believe the lies of the letters,
and the false things I had supposedly said about you...
I can't blame you though. This was what I was trying to tell you from the start.

I finally pushed you away.

And I was back to being alone.
Learning a whole new definition of "Hell!"
And so I spent the last few years,
watching you behind glass... Wondering... Why?
As you played with the other boys.

You were Happy in Forget.
I wish I too, could forget.
But it doesn't matter Now.
'Cos I'm Happy Now... Peace at last!

If I knew that was gonna be my last memory of you...
I might of said "Goodbye".
But then again, Perhaps not.
'Cos you were Smiling already.



So I'll say it here,
And I'll say it now...

Goodbye, Christine...


Goodbye...