death to forecast

I'll bite my tongue and say its fine,
but I’m doing this so the truth is hidden,
it's not fine.
I'll close my eyes and say I’m fine,
I only do this so I don't cry,
I’m not fine.
promises are broken,
again and again.
lies are said,
over and over.
my heart is shattered,
and this duck tape isn’t working.
I can't remember why this happened.
but the pain is oh so deadly.
I think I fell long ago,
the day the world turned its back on me,
or did I turn my back on the world...?
so knock me over,
I won’t get up.
break my heart,
I’m not fixing it.
let me fall asleep,
and not awake.
I close my eyes as I fall.
so knock me over,
I'll stay down.
break my heart,
I'll watch it bleed.
let me fall asleep,
and never wake up again
I’m confused and running in circles,
should I give up?
end the pain!
promise me the world won’t cry,
If I shall go out in a bang.
promise to let me slip,
the night someone wishes me dead.
tonight I fall asleep,
with dreams of not waking....