My Angel's Morals

Have you no realization to your wonderful person?
That perhaps what you always wanted and looked for in that someone just for you
Is right here? Has been all along and will always be?
Now, as you wrap your arms round me and tighten your embrace
Could it be possible that you do know it? Have known it for some time?
But then, why not tell me?
Why not establish a connection, the bond we both dream of?
Take me as your lover instead of just a close friend
A lover to whom you share the kisses we both dream of
Embracing in those dark times for just for the sake of them being in your arms
Loving with such a passion that it would make Aphrodite weep with such envy
Why not tell me now if you know? Or should I leave it in my mind?
To let it simmer with disappointment and fear of doubt
What if my little daydreams are not true? That even you
Do not love me though you swear someone out there does
If it's not you than why shall I even bother as you say I should?
Are you protecting me from yourself?
That possibility which burns with an agony so great
That I'd lose my life over it again
Perhaps not survive this time, especially over you
Knowing you as well as I do, it would be such a toil in your mind with your morals
Never to allow yourself to try something that could possibly endanger me
Or my feelings and views in general
Especially over you and how I feel
I know you know, we both silently agreed that we know
Of my still growing passionate love for you
Something that a god's lightning bolt could never smite
Yet with your morals and self-hate
You'll never try such a thing
But I want to with all my dark, little crushed heart
I want us to try, I want to call you 'love' and kiss you on those perfect lips
With the same intensity that you would a lover
Kisses we've shared, yes, but though upon your lips I have placed more than one kiss
It was never more than the understanding of a grayed line in our friendship
Will you ever cross that line?
Suddenly, your arm tightens on my waist
I can feel your nose nuzzling my hair
Your baritone voice humming a song
Our song, another oddity added to our grayed friendship
A couple, but not, close friends, but closer
"I know you've been thinking about all of this." You say
I frown and tilt my gaze to look at you, my head still rested against your chest
"What do you mean? How?"
You chuckle, gazing into my eyes "Because you always have that look when you're upset over us. You forget, I know you better than anyone ever has, or ever will."
I cling to you, wishing that if the tightness of our embrace could banish all the doubts
Then we could live deeper than that gray line and forever be free of fears
You sigh, allowing your eyes to watch the sky again as snowflakes waver down about us
"I won't hurt you like that. That's why I can't bring myself to try what you want of me."
"But you're hurting me like this, now. Just dancing on a boundary."
You sigh again, bringing me closer still, though I'm already laying atop you
"One day, perhaps my morals will allow me to try such a thing with you. To chance your emotional and fragile heart. But, I cannot do so now. You know that."
I stifle the whimper in the back of my throat.
"Yes."