Randomness

Precious, special nights spent tangling in the sheets
In our earnestness, in our love, in our plain lust
Where’d the night go, we’d wonder
As the sun came up and brought us back to Earth
And kisses, soft, gentle, fell like rain.
Reluctantly leaving, a cab waiting outside in a misty morning
As I went about my day to school,
Sometimes skipping, to spend the day with you
In the warm arms of a man that loved me and that I loved.
Chance meetings in the supermarket turned sweet,
A sugary goodness that didn’t upset the appetite
Even in full view of my absently-watching father
And hand-in-hand we’d wander the aisles like
An old, doting couple, together, complete, yet individual.
What happened, my love, my heart?
When suspicion-colored glasses are peered through
Life looks wrong, not right like it should have,
The tension builds and builds without being checked.
Problems abounded, insecurity complexes flourished
Where you tried banishing my demons I hid,
And you did the same with me in all my demon-slaying glory.
Thus it ended, in a huddling mass of pain and betrayal
And seeing you brings it all back, each glorious memory
Compounded with the anguish of my thoughts of late
But it’s getting better, I think, I hope…
When you cried last night you turned to me, just me,
Ignoring her calls from across the street
Your heart breaking in my grasp and I held your hand
Both like and unlike when we were an ‘us’.
There is so much left to say, my heart,
And you know a lot of it, my words wouldn’t surprise you
And your apologies are sweet but late, and not mattering anymore
There’s not much to forgive anymore
Just an understanding needed between us
And me needing to remember you're engaged to HER.
You turned to me, not her.
It was all this selfish girl could need,
All I wanted.

And I got more, from you,
So never regret, and don't forget, our time.
Don't run, my love, don't run away
I'd miss you terribly...

(And she'd blame ME!!)