Trial by Fire

Mirror, mirror on the wall, who am I ?
It time to define me, rip the raw edges off my wounds of time
Reflecting my year inner strength has been my guide
Learned love can be so sweet
When that sweetness ends their empty void in life

What I learned I can  not control the outer world
nor can I change how others feel about me
I now see, we have an inner mirror that keep us from reflecting the inner truth

Inner truth weeps so hard, one can hear it breaking
Our body and beauty shall fail us
For we all age, we do not have to do it with grace
Fight in every way possible
Age is like a thief trying to take bits and parts of our world
Now I must fight harder to live not let pain blind me
There is still a big world to explore
I use to be a know it all

What  I learn is I know less then more
I use to think I knew God plan
Now I can say it a mystery to me at times

I must have a curse upon my soul
that I can not see

All those I love leave me, what I touch seems to turn to ash not roses
My petty dreams of a childhood, did not come true
Bore the hurt of rejection from my dreams
Now I reflect upon my life it hurts that my dreams
have not come true the harder I tried more it eluded me

What I learned true strength comes from pain
A trial by fire taught one, what they did not what to repeat it
One learns more from failure then triumphant

I am learning to be at peace
Taking the time to pour my self in art
I did not think I would four close people this year
The year not over possible of two more deaths to come

I shall wait in the soot of my burnt ashes of life
Wait to see, what life is going to give to me
Life is an adventure it does not travel where we want to go
it takes us on many deturns