alone

I feel so
utterly

alone.

Like I have to revert back into myself

so I dont become a burden
an untouchable....

I feel like in my full life
filled with happiness, love and joy
I should be able to rely on someone
anyone....

please?

my somber soul depresses
my heavy heart weeps
and I turn in on myself
living inside myself
for no one else to see
or hear

i'm sorry for being such a burden
i'm sorry for being such an untouchable
i'm sorry for being me

even the happiest of people
need a shoulder to cry on every once in a while
i'm sorry my "every once in a while "
was on yours.

I hate feeling like this
so utterly and irrevocably

alone.

Author notes

This is written for my now ex friend hannah. One day she just decided to up and forget me as a friend. she wrote me an email explaining that i am too much of a burden and im untrustworthy..... she was the one person i trusted more then anything and was my best friend through all of high school... now she just leaves me...

Im just incredibly heart broken and im going through tough shit at school, such as a bitch roommate, finals week, arguments with my boyfriend and just plain feeling alone. I just feel like i cant rely on anyone because they all just leave me in the end... am i destined to be alone forever?