Red-rimmed Dark Circular Exhaustion

I'll take that coffee with an extra shot of rejection
why must I go through this? I was obliviously
unaware of my inhibition before you showed up
head splitting mind numbing whirlwind of elation
rake me through again and again, will I give in
my world, an upside down atrocity, agonizing

it's me, not you, I hear echo within my core
never had to do this fucking chase before
oh give me another bone, more m o r e MORE!!!
don't you get it, it's not your voice or body I only adore
even though, yes, they sometimes knock me to the floor
then the next night, in the dark I am under ignore
give it up, get it straight, I'm not a damn whore!

rekindle the feeling, let's see it through...
oh what I would give to stop the silence
blood boiling, teeth grinding, appease the monster
there's always tomorrow?

smells like a disaster and I'll never look back
clock ticking, increasing anxiety building
walls across my heart and burning inside
time to settle this, no more false alarms
insomniatic dreams peeling away the layers
am I finally on equal ground!?