Crystal Tears

I sit in the darkness that clouds my mind
Wishing I could see everything as clearly as I used to
The pain I'd brushed off revisiting and haunting me.
The shadows take form around me, each trying their hand at my torment.
One by one, my darkest memories resurfaces,
grinning grimly, smirking devilishly, only to prod my soul with their pitchforks and leave.
My emotions run wild and take control of my rational self.
I become wild, unforgiving, untame, and viscious.
I become more myself than I've ever been.
It's been so long since I've worn my heart on my shoulders....
As this side of me re-awakens, I feel my claws grow sharper
And my animal self takes undaunted control of my existance
I run... like the frightened cat I've become.
Fighting holds no avail; not when the demons coming for your life are your own
And as I reach a point of falsified saftey... hiding behind a front of growls, claws and fangs
I realize that my face is wet and assume it to be blood.
I let it run down my face until it drips off of my cheek.
And in the longest second of my life I see it for what it is.
I'm crying.
Against my will
Uncontrolably...Silently
I feel the rush of every emotion in the moment...
The anger....Confusion.....The self hatred...The sadness
The utter darkness that I've surrounded myself in to form the stone that encased my heart.
All released in this one moment in this burst of emotion....energy....
And falls to the ground, solidifying on its way down...
My heart becoming fire...blazing my tear into crystal