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Friends for Life and Death

The weight of regret
was heavy on his voice  
when he spoke.
His words were choked
by fear as he attempted
to piece together the torn
fabrics of our once upon
a time friendship.
The same friendship
he had ripped to shreds
and destroyed.

A rain storm of tears
flooded from his eyes,
gushing free from the
damn that had been holding
them back.
Ocean's deep was his sorrow
as he begged forgiveness,
treading water. Waiting for
me to throw him a line,
to rescue him from drowning
in his apology.

His voice sliced through
the anger and distance that
had separated us.
The gap between who was right
and who was wrong so many
dark moons ago, was suddenly
bridged by the light of
the here and now.

My heart instantly opened
it's petals to him in
forgiveness releasing the
anguish I had bottled up.
I let love flow freely
through my veins, giving
it back to my once again
bestest friend, knowing
his return to me meant one
thing...
he finally got his ticket,
he came back to me so

he could die knowing he

was loved.

Author notes

Moved to tears...my "bestest girlfriend" for 15 years, who is really a gay guy, called me out of the blue today, after months of avoiding me becuase he had stolen money from me, to tell me he has just a few days left to live...could I come visit him in the hospital? My friend is HIV positive from a blood transfusion 20 years ago...we have joked about his death for years, him worried he will look a mess on his day of departure, but we have never talked serious about it. I went to see him in the hospital today. My big strong macho best friend was skin and bones, yellow from the hepatits and afraid I wouldn't forgive him for destroying our friendship...over money!!! The worst part was his fear that God wouldn't forgive him and he was going to hell!!! How do you convince a person they are heaven worthy when they believe they are not?? How do you give faith away?? I am torn...I pray God gives me the strength to share with my best friend before it's to late.

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  • myrataal silver member
    July 31

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    Hallo Shelly

    With a bit of a sleepless night, I have time to read poets of an "earlier" AP. And thought I would come read some of you. This is a wonderful write of love and compassion. Forgiveness is an act of love par excellence.

    Congratulations on the Bronze, which seems very Gold to me.

    Love
    Myra

  • avatar1957
    December 10, 2008

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    Excellent!!!!

    nevadapoet, I am amazed, how wonderful a gift of forgiveness truly is! As far as him being afraid he isn't going to heaven, isn't it a shame how religious dogma has reigned condemnation!!! Hard core christians believe homosexuals female/male alike are destined to go to Hell, well trust me, I have a gay male friend and I'd rather go to hell with him then spend one day in Heaven with a bunch of religious fanatics any old day.
    As a Native American we embrace our two spirited earth walkers!! we believe each of them are mediums between this world and the spirit world
    Please for me reassure him!!!!
    And I promise I will put him under my prayer candle
    Avatar1957


  • RT KatPat
    December 9, 2008

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    True friendship transends all barriers.
    Am glad you were there for your wonderful friend just when he needed you the most.


  • Cannonsfire
    December 7, 2008

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    Shelly this is very touching, all your best friend needs to know that God doesn't judge you, we do it all by ourselves and the fact you and this friend are meeting, his apology for his actions are enough, forgive is divine remember. C


  • Susan John Francis
    December 7, 2008
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    A beautiful write for a friend..... Cheer up with the bunnies..


  • Dalaney gold member
    December 7, 2008

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    Oh my. This is so bittersweet and sad, yet it is also such a strong testimony of love and friendship. I will keep you both in my prayers. Love, Lane


  • Denerica
    December 7, 2008
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    oh...the 4th line did you mean choked instead of spelling it chocked?

  • Denerica
    December 7, 2008
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    You are on the right track now in sharing with your friend, this write is heartfelt and I believe you should share it with him as well. Forgiveness is a powerful weapon displayed from us through God, I believe it is all well with each of your souls right now...beautiful write, best blessings over the contest.

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