It's nearing five weeks now,
Five weeks since I last heard from you,
Since my caller I.D said it was you,
My emails said it was you,
My ears telling me it was you.
You're the one person,
A girl is supposed to trust,
Above any other.
Whose respect is given,
Without needing to earn it.
But tell me why you deserve it?
What person deserves trust,
Deserves anything,
Without first needing to gain it?
You always told me,
I need to earn your respect,
And your trust.
What about mine?
You need to earn mine too.
Once, I never questioned this.
It wasn't long ago now,
That I nearly understood what you meant,
But everyone pulled that away from me,
Telling me I wasn't ready,
I was still too young,
You completely understand.
I expected you to understand me the most,
Hold me close when my tears ran,
Offer me some sort of comfort.
You did the opposite,
You pushed me away.
And expect me to forgive you, when you finally calm down.
Now, you've gone too far.
It's been five weeks since I last heard from you.
You're email said it all.
And now, you have the cheek to tell family members,
You haven't heard from me in nearly two weeks.
Whose the liar now Dad?
Who needs to earn respect?
Trust?
Love?
Parents expect respect,
They expect you to trust them.
How can we?
When they break that so often?
And just demand it back.
Not this time Dad...
This time, I took the first step in apology.
Now, you earn my trust...
Author notes
My Dad and I have been falling out along lately.
This time, he's gone too far...
Instead of me earning his trust, he's got to earn mine...
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I could really really relate to the second to last stanza the most. It made me think back to when I was 13 and my parents expected me to trust them after sending me to a hospital and not dealing with me properly. When I got out things just go worse and they'd say "how can we trust you?" and I'd say the same thing back.
I've never depended on my parents and have never expected anything from them but it's frustrating when things begin to crumble. I've been butting heads with my mom a lot lately because she never takes the time to understand, she always victimizes herself and can never admit when she's wrong. it's a bunch of bullshit. I wrote a piece about her as well.
I'm sorry to hear about your dad. It sounds like you really love him and I hope you guys can work through this and overcome the barrier between you two. Maybe there's a misunderstanding on his part... but I don't know. I hope things work out for you hun.
all my love
HNB
xxx
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You're writing has improved tenfold recently K. I'm very impressed!!! Nice subject matter (though I'm sorry to hear you're having family problems.) Keep it up kiddo x
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You're writing has improved tenfold recently K. I'm very impressed!!! Nice subject matter (though I'm sorry to hear you're having family problems.) Keep it up kiddo x
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