my mind wanders

look, i'm glad we talked,
and that we cleared the air and all;
but really?
we're buddies at best,
and there are some things you should probably keep
to yourself.
don't text me with "i miss you's",
just because you think it's what i want to hear.

it's not.

i'm cool with being friends and
sort of starting over and all,
but you really have to know that i don't want to know.

i don't.

so if you want this friendship or
whatever it is
to get to how it was before all this got started,
you're really going to have to get a filter
for that mouth of yours.

i've been saying that for months,
that you need a filter.

you always have.

i know you a little too well, i think.
i guess that's why you still text me
about your grandparents,
or that girl at work;
because i'm the only person who really
understood,
because for such a long time i was the only one
who understood.

and i mean, i get that.
i get that you and i had an
understanding,
and that's natural.
but now i think we might just be a little
too
understanding, and you're still
holding on to that.

which is funny, because that's the only thing
you're bothering to hold on to.

but look, my point is we're supposed to be
starting fresh,
as friends and all,
so you've got to let that understanding
go.
pretend that we don't know each other
as well as we do.

the sooner we don't know each other,
the sooner we can start over.