I Need To Move On

It's been a long time.
I still love him
And I can't seem to let him go.
He's all I choose to live for.

Sometimes I wonder
Just why I ever fell for him.
Then I remind myself
That he loved me for me.

I could hardly believe
I was in love.
It was a first
And I felt like I was in the clouds.

No one had ever even paid attention to me.
I just wanted someone to love
And it turned out that that person
Just somehow loved me back.

He was wonderful.
He told me I was beautiful
And he once blew me a kiss.
But our relationship was nice.

We never held hands
Or gave one another a hug.
We never kissed or anything like that.
We just talked.

I could talk to that guy all day
And never get tired of watching or listening to him.
I want him to know everything about me
And I want to know everything about him.

But you know how long it's been?
December 5, 2006 was the day I almost died.
I tried to pick myself back up
And find all the pieces of my heart.

I couldn't find evertyhing.
He seemed to have stolen most of the pieces.
It didn't look like he would be giving them back.
I'd have to live without him somehow.

It's been two years...
I still haven't figured out
How to breath without seeing him
Each week at church.

I haven't figured out
How not to love this guy.
I haven't figured out
How to keep my heart from racing when he walks by.

It's been so long
Since I fell for him.
I need to move on
But I've got a little problem....

I have no idea how to do that.