I Still Remember

Today my eyes fill with tears.
Today I have to face my fears.
I hated this day two years ago.
My emotions sunk extremely low.

How could I ever forget that day you made me wish
I had recorded everything on a cassette?
How could I ever forget you?
You were amazing and you just had to bid me ado.

I couldn't believe it!
You told me you loved me at least a little bit.
I believed you and said it back.
When you said it, I felt my soul crack.

I have always  loved you
And it was like you snuck up behind me to scream "BOO!"
It scared me half to death;
The thought of not being with you took away my breath.

I remember the day you told me you liked me
I couldn't do anything else but just agree.
I liked you so much - yes in that way
But now I feel that you led me astray.

I remember when you told me you loved me.
Right then I felt like I could fly myself straight out to sea.
To feel the warm waves on my skin
Would be like feeling your arms wrapped around me, my head only reaching your chin.

I remember that day you told me I was beautiful.
I could only say to you that my heart was full.
It was full of happiness, love and joy.
I finally was in love with this boy!

Then I remember that day you said "It's over."
I hated you for that and I didn't think I could ever forgive you.
I loved you and didn't want to lose you.
My heart seemed to go from red to blue.

I ran home fast and called a friend.
I was curled up in a ball, convinced the world was at an end.
I cried for minutes, hours, days and months
Believing that it would somehow help me get throught the years.

I finally found that I still loved you.
I still loved you a year later but I was still blue.
My eyes were still red and puffy from the tears
And I was always waiting for the moment that you would appear.

I still loved you a year and a half later
And I was counting down the days to when I could stand a little straighter.
I don't know when that will be,
But I hope it is the day you decide to go out with me.

Now it's been exactly two years.
I've been dreading this day like a couple of beers.
I've got less than a year to wait
Then I can finally ask you out on a date.

I just wish that day was today
Because I can't keep you from my mind which is all in disarray.
My feelings are jumbled up
And I don't know what to think except, "Yup, yup, yup!"

I'm confused and scared;
Waiting for you to say yes is waiting to see if you even ever cared.
I love you and I want you to know that.
I just want one little chat.

Keep thinking of me and I'll think of you.
I'm waiting for that day when I won't be blue.
Keep me in your heart because I want you to hold me
And let me know you love me too.