Now that you're gone

I wish I could explain to you how much you meant,
now your gone,
and I'll never get to tell you that,
I'll never get to hug you one last time,
I'll never get to call you a friend,
all i have is the memory, of what used to be,
I'll never forget you,
and I'll never forgive you,
I counted on you,
and you pulled away,
I trusted you,
and you ran,
headed straight for your death,
how many people do I have to lose before I hold on to the ones that I have?
I gave up so much for you,
and now what am I stuck with?
nothing, exactly what you gave me,
exactly what I asked for.
I love you,
I hope you realize that now that your gone.
I hope you can see how much you mean to me,
I hope that my breath is not wasted,
and I hope that you can finally understand me.
I know your gone,
but you'll always be in my heart.