Darkness dulls the day; laying in our bed
Thoughts race clumsily through my head.
Closing my eyes brings mass confusion
Is his love for me his fanatsy, a delusion?
After your death I was left in an abysmal pit of pain
In his arms I began to feel alive once again.
Oh God this guilt is heavy and sharp...
Why do I feel like if I let him into my heart, I am tearing US apart?
I know he loved you as I surely still do.
I know when you died you took a piece of him too.
He has declared his love for me loud and true,
He swears he knows that this wouldn't be hurting you.
How can he be so sure that you'd be happy to see
That it is HIM who is loving me?
"When your ready I'll be here"
Understanding and patient, wanting my love.
But am I ready? Hurting US is my fear...
Are you still my one and only?
What if I can't love him, solely?
Our children have suffered hard in losing their father.
Intense confusion and pain in the innocent heart of our daughter.
Our son has struggled with life since your demise
I see so much ache, such intense anger when I look in his eyes.
The loss has been overwheling; left a river of tears.
Are WE ready... Please Dear husband give me a sign!
It's only been two years...
Can I really leave US behind?
Author notes
#5 and #6 (loves confusion)
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Comments
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WOW!!!
This was AMAZING!!! I really loved the ending also... Im really sorry for what you are going through and i hope you make it through this as well as your children... Its never easy to lose a loved one and it never will be easy.. No many how many tears you shed or how many times you yell, nothing ever brings him back... Im really sorry for your loss and i know exactly what you are going through... Keep up the great work... Writing always relieves anger and pain.
Good luck in my contest!!!
Shannon*Leah
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Love can still walk in your heart
With someone now new
Yet our love will always be
Listen hard for it is true
If happiness can be yours now
Let him hold you in his heart
For there is room enough for two
And from you I will never part
Great poem, I really feel the emotion and pain that you are feeling, you have reached out and touched the heart, blessings with love John
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there isn't really anything i can say to a strong poem just hope that you know that no one wishes those they leave behind to wear black for long. hard thing, cause it makes you think you gave up on them. i don't know what you are going through, but i will say that i am sorry for your lose, keep it flowing and good luck in the contest
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my sweet Nicole..
listen, if you don't hear anything else i say, hear this..If your husband could talk to you i'm sure he would tell you that he wants you to be happy, so no matter who it is..if they make you happy? You owe it to yourself to try and be happy. 2 years is a long enough grieving period, and you're not being unfaithful to his memory, and also it's obvious no one can or will replace him in your heart..but i'm guessing you have a big enough heart where there could be room for another, just try and find some happiness is all i'm suggesting ok sweet lady?
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