every day seems like a dream when im around you ,letting everything else slip aside enduring the pleasure of your company and putting to rest the complexes that creep inside me. Laughing, joking , teasing,flirting and even lieing about who i really am. Hoping to hold onto something that wasnt there to start with.I can only believe in what I think I know often replacing reality with fantasy. I wait for the time to come to see your face again , to play games ,to feel life again for whats its worth and everyday i breathe alittle bit more knowing theres a chance you will be there.I find excuses to come ,excuses to make me wanna be there beside you ,across from you or anywhere near you. It doesnt matter that you have no clue and every day you walk right past me. Your not suspicious and dont bother to look.You placed urself at a higher stance than i could ever become ,but that too,is alright.Your level of holiness would anger some and make others laugh at you for being so judgemental, I dont care though,Im use to being left out and i like being unnoticed, I never had the privalege of the world revolving around myself ,i use every day to its fulliest and i know the strongest love there is , im happy and im free,im just sorry your the one so incomplete. Yes, it hurts that you cant see me and i cant reach the sky for you ,i wont even try to. I dont want material things to make me look good or friends who think they have it all when they dont even compare to what i have, i just wanted for one minute ,one short period of your time, you, I didnt get that but i like the punishment so i wont be quick to give up anytime soon because I know deep down in the end ,your already there waiting ,knowing all the while your biggest problem was I already had you beat.
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