I want him to...

Just tell me why,
I feel this way.
Why I want him to go,
but I want him to stay.
Please tell me why,
this life is so hard.
Why I keep on running,
but I never get far.
And I feel cold,
Confused,
Alone.
But in his arms,
I felt at home.
Just tell me why,
it never lasts.
Why all my fun,
falls to the past.
And I keep looking,
but I can't find.
that light I saw,
that use to shine.
Just tell me why,
things have to change.
Why he keeps on moving,
But I stay the same.
Please  tell me why,
I can never be,
everything he wants,
nothing he can see.
And i'm in love,
and he doesn't know,
that all this time,
I wanted it to show.
But he's so blind,
he see's right through,
the things i've been saying,
everything true.
Won't you tell me why,
I let it hurt so much,
because I would walk threw fire,
just to feel his touch.
Why I try so hard,
to beleive in that word.
To know that I mean it,
to hope that the heard.
And I can feel the world,
moving around.
but somehow my feet,
never left the ground.
Everythings spinning,
and he spins along,
this thing called life,
while I try to stay strong.
Just..tell me why,
It won't go away.
I want him to go,
but I want him to stay.