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the fight inside fought back...and won

secret - bulimia

 

September 15, 2002

9:30am

 

i. Dear Diary, no one understands. I hate myself, but maybe things will get better soon. I lost another 4 lbs. today. I had breakfast, not much though. I threw it up already, so I'm hoping that'll help. I'm about to start exercising, probably for about an hour. Oh...that reminds me. I need to go buy me some more laxatives, I'm almost out. Well, goodbye for now, Diary. I've got things to do, more wait to lose. I told myself I would be 100 lbs. by the end of the month.

 

September 21, 2002

5:00pm

 

ii.  Dear Diary, I feel like crap, but it's worth it. At least I'm not a fat pig anymore. I eat whatever I want....I just make sure it doesn't stay down for long. I don't want to have to start over. Not that it would matter, I could do it. After all, no one can count calories like I can. I just....I just wish I felt better. It's ok, I'm not as fat. 10 lbs. left...

 

September 30, 2002

11:59pm - deadline

 

iii.  Dear Diary, I made it. I even exceeded my goal! I went from a fat and grotesque 150 lbs. to a not as fat 97 lbs. I can....I can barely breath, but that's okay, it's only a side effect. I'm sure it'll wear off. And I didn't know writing could be so hard either. Well...I'll ttyl Diary. I suppose.

 

*leaves room, goes into living room*

 

"Hey Mom"

"Yes dear?"

*Heavy breathing* "I don't feel so well, like something's wrong."

"Well...babe, come here, let me look at you."

"Okay. It's just kinda hard to......." *collapses on floor*

"Babe, get up! Honey, call the paramedics!"

*strokes daughter's hair* "Shh...it's going to be fine. You're going to be okay." *holds back tears*

 

 

November 1, 2002

3:00am -deceased

 

Author notes

I have never had an eating disorder. This is only my view and how I see and from what I already know. So before you blast me with comments about "this is not how it really is", please take into account what I have said above.

Pic Credit: http://mika-kun.deviantart.com/art/PostSecret-Bulimia-29682331

Other poems in "My Welcome Back":

Of Life & Fairy Tales
Arise
The Life Of Lady

Options - 5: A poem about an addiction. Whether to pain, alcohol,drugs,sex,people, anything. As long as it's meaningful.

1) Write about an eating disorder or having an eating disorder. This includes but is not limited to anorexia, bulimia, and compulsive eating disorder. Write however you want, but don't make fun of them. They aren't funny. And remember, it's not only females who go through this.

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Comments

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  • Diminished Capacity gold member
    October 15

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    This is very sad, but it's become an issue that a lot of young girls face. You did a wonderful job with this, and I thank you for entering my contest.


  • nkn.415
    April 28

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    i lked reading this. you really made me feel how she felt with imagery. I like your formatting too. overall, this is awesome. =]


  • Dlvvanzor
    April 25

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    Wow, I really love it. I love how you set it up, how it went from a diary to like a play form!

    Thanks for entering!
    -Dlvvanzor


  • stargazer.
    March 15
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    I love how this is formatted, it makes it seem as if it is really a diary of someone suffering.


  • couldbeworse
    March 1

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    wow! i am speechless on this one. i cant lelieve the amazing piece i just read. i love love the way its written as a diary. the ending is sad but true in a lotof cases. just wonderful!


  • starving4perfection
    January 26

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    omg that is really amazing. it made me cry. its really sad. and seeing as though you've never experienced it its a good view point. its quite close to how it feels i can tell you that i can really relate to it. unusual style aswell, but i really liked it =]
    thank you for taking the time to enter my contest and good luck! =]


  • DogTagz-TheJalapeno
    January 13

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    Thats depressing it was good though, just not really poetic. Like freeverse.
    Good luck on the contest.


  • Blooming Poet
    January 6
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    I have had some brushes with eating disorders. so 8

  • Do I look good
    December 27, 2008
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    I really enjoyed it.


  • Kirs
    December 24, 2008

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    Excellent

    It is really insightful, and creative as well. It was nice to read something raw and unflattering, it gave it so much more depth and meaning that way, thank you very much.
    "No one understands. . . I hate myself. . . I feel like crap. . . I made it"
    ♥.

  • Kyo-N
    December 21, 2008

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    This is not a poem, but either way. The topic is something I'm concerned with, as I've had my own hell because of someone dear to me suffering from one of these disorders.


  • ASmileForYou
    December 17, 2008

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    This is so creative! It captures her thoughts and emotions perfectly. I've never had an eating disoder either, so I wouldn't really know what it is like; but you've got me convinced!
    This was a very good write! I enjoyed it a lot!
    Thanks for sharing!


  • Jaffa-
    December 15, 2008
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    Your my first finalist

  • Jaffa-
    December 15, 2008

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    I couldn't really see what as going on in the picture. But the poem was amazing. I loved the format that you had. It was so sad, i actually cried a little. It was an awesome thing to right about and very well done seeing as you have never had an eating disorder. I don't know much about them other than they can be very dangerous. You should be happy with who you are no matter what size. Very lovely and heartfelt write. I really really enjoyed it.
    Well done and best of luck in the contests.
    Thank you for the very lovely write.


  • aboomer silver member
    December 14, 2008

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    Aw - so heartfelt and touching. I love how you have done this as a diary entry. It made it seem so relatable.
    I've never had an eating disorder, but I know for many it is a daily struggle. You've done well depicting that.
    best wishes in the contest


  • Amana Araya Jabari
    December 5, 2008
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    utterly beliveble! It flowed and haveing it like a diary made it very unique I loved it!


  • FaerieNWonderland
    December 5, 2008

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    this is amazing!
    it gave me chills i love how even though you have never had an eating disorder you still portrayed such pain and heartache.
    its a very beautiful heartbreaking piece!
    i enjoyed so much reading this, thanks for writing and sharing this.

    your Faerie


  • movedon
    December 4, 2008

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    My aunt died from an eating disorder. This relly hit home for me. Wow......I'm speechless.

    Mylee


  • Jason Smith
    December 4, 2008

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    Very good

    This is a very well written poem that almost seems to be a diary entry which makes it even better, unique even. This is a very good write that must have been somewhat difficult to do because of the unusualness of how you have written it, but I wouldn't change anything it it. This is an excellent write


  • BehindTheShadow
    December 4, 2008

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    I have never had an eating disorder either, but I think you did a great job of showing me your perspective. NIce piece.

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