Chaos

My life is like the ocean,
in dark chaos,
my emotions the waves,
crashing angerly against the sandy beach.
My tears pouring down my face,
like the rain from dark clouds,
dripping into the chaos below.
I cant take it,
are these like her tears?
How many tears came before blood?
How many tears would have come before someone would understand?
Will anyone understand my tears?
Will anyone be here to calm the chaos in the end?
Who can stop the tears,
that flow from my eyes?
Who cant stop the pain in my breaking heart.
Maybe the one that I broke down inside,
The one who is no longer here,
The one who truly loved me,
The one I turned away.
Maybe someday my chaos will changed a life.
Maybe someday some one will change my chaos.
But for now I mourn the life my mom took,
For reasons that's fault are partly mine.
For four years now I have lived with knowing this,
and wondering when the chaos will stop,
who else will I destroy?
My life is like the ocean,
in dark chaos,
my emotions the waves,
crashing angerly against the sandy beach.
My tears pouring down my face,
like the rain from dark clouds,
dripping into the chaos below.