water

i plunge my hands deep into the water
fingers touching the remaining dishes
the water feels so cold
i replace it with hot
but once again it feels cold
the water is set on the highest temp
yet it still feels cold
the knives melting
plates disappearing
pans twisting
the water feels so cold
my hands burn red
but they feel as cold as the water
my skin peels away
exposing the underlying muscle
soon it too melts away
but the water is so cold
soon all that's left of my hands are bone
the water wasn't hot enough
i couldn't feel it burning my skin
couldn't feel my hands melting away
why doesn't it go any hotter
its not hot enough
i cant feel anything
so numb
the pain isn't there
whats wrong
why wont this damn water go any higher
its not fucking hot enough
nor will it ever be
to melt me away
to make me feel the pain
to make me feel alive
to make me reel and scream from the pain
no this water wasn't ever really enough
was it?