Will I Ever Belong

Whats it like to be okay
its hard to remember now
I think I used to know
but I can't remember how

sometimes I feel a bit better
but I never feel truly sound
just another one of my ups
fallowed by one of my downs

how do I get back in from the outside
I've been lost for so long
and there is nothing that I haven't tried
maybe I'll never belong

I try to keep focused
to keep control over my mind
but I find myself to far ahead
then suddenly falling behind

How do I keep on waiting
on something that wont arrive
how do I keep on living
when I don't feel alive

how do I get back in from the outside
I've been lost for so long
and there is nothing that I haven't tried
maybe I'll never belong

how do I get back in
when all I know is out
how do I find the strength
when I'm filled with doubt

where do I find the right in all this wrong
maybe I'll never
will I ever
maybe I'll never belong