2 dec 2008 prayer for a life and reasoning

Im not sure if its me,
Im not sure at all,
My life has been torn apart,
He left me standing there,
I don't want to see you no more,
That's all I hear and see,
Replaying in my mind,
Why is love hard for me,
Why does it go wrong,
What have I done wrong is the matter,
Why is my life so torn,
I want to hit my a train,
But my friends says,
"There's better days ahead"
I want to hurt my self,
I can't cause ive promise not to,
Life here has no more promises,
And no more feelings for me,
"God why am I alive,
So you every one can hurt me,
Is there a reason why im here,
Im been treated like shit all my life,
Please let go I want to be an angel god,
I don't deserve to live anymore,
Why am I wasting time on this loney planet,
Why  am I alive,
I have no purpose in this life apart from fighting a battle that's gone on for ages,
Please let me go home,
I don't want to be here no more,
Please
Amen