I hate that I still care

I can’t hate you because I never really loved you…
Why can’t I stop thinking about you?
Why the hell did you hurt me like the way you did?
Fuck,  I need answers…
I am angry and pissed off…
Do I have that right or did I do it to myself?
Whether I want to or not I do still have feelings for you…
Does it mean that I want to get back together with you?
Does it? Damn no…
I can’t be with someone that I have no respect or trust for…
I hate the fact that I cannot let go…
I remember every little detail like it was yesterday…
I made more of the situation then it was..
Leave my heart, mind and soul…
Leave, I can’t stand the lingering of the memories anymore…
Fuck,  I want to hate you so bad… I dearly do…
I want to fucking leave you for good…
You have a hold over me and it makes me hate myself for it even more…
Leave, please leave and don’t look back…