Dear Lord above,
my Savior
I ask you now to listen to me
for I have a story to share.
For a long time
I was sad,
confused,
and yes even angry.
For a long time
I trusted no one
not even you my Lord.
No one would listen
no one seemed to care
and my hope
was only thread bare.
Why is it
that adults do what they do?
Why is it
that they choose to abuse?
Abuse
it only leads to pain,
suffering,
and questions
with answers never given.
Like why me?
What did I do to deserve this?
Hiding out in fear
for years,
weeks,
or even days at a time
to avoid a beating,
the smell of alchol,
and the tears and pleading
that always seemed to come.
No one ever saw my pain
nor heard my sobbing
or saw the life of nightmares that I
had to live in.
I couldn't talk,
dared not speak
for fear of re-opening old wounds
and making my life even worse.
Now though,
my Lord above
I ask you to listen to my prayers.
A prayer to forgive
all those who abuse
(for I know I will never be able to)
even though they know
what they have done deserves no excuses.
Also, my Lord
I wish to pray
for all those who have suffered
at their abusers hands
for they my Lord
are truly
in a world
where no one understands
what it is like
to be the abused one.
Amen
Author notes
trekkergirl I believe both option one and two fit... but this is written from the eyes of a child. So I guess you can do either one. But I like from the eyes of a child best.
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700 points, ended November 30, 2008, 11 entries
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1100 points, ended February 2, 24 entries
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Awesome write. Keep up the great work, this is so true and easy for many to relate to. I wish you the best of luck in my contest and thank you for entering this piece. you did however not put some things in your authers notes
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thats scary
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hey the date changed i had it on the 31 wtf it changed to my b-day
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why do you people make it so hard to judge you are 3rd ive read and i cant choose ahhhhh my head hurts
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This was a beautiful write and i love how it was written as a prayer. I personally loved these lines
"for all those who have suffered
at their abusers hands
for they my Lord
are truly
in a world
where no one understands"
because abuse really is something that many can't understand and no one really likes to talk about it.
great write and thank you for entering
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prayer is always good. and it works when we work in accordance to it. and its good that a lot of people are standing up to these sick people. good write
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wow what a powerful prayer if only god would listen my dad abused me and the only reason i got out is because i almost commined suicide then i got the corage to stand up to my dad and i went back to my mom
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I like this one!! It is like a rant of the head! The questions, the answers and the painful truth...all rolled into one dark-pretty write!! I enjoyed the rythm of the poem!! It had a lot of angst and helplessness in it!! Very beautiful!!
Good luck in all your contests
and Congrats for already won contests
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I love the questions , questions in poetry always leave me thinking, You really do use emotion well with your words. Wonderful write.
Laura
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Thanks for your comments on my poem. I do like to put a whole lot of emotions into my write. I want the reader to feel whatever it is I am trying to get across. Sometimes I succeed. Sometimes not.
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excellent write. so very sad but beautiful. I could never forgive my abusers but i loved in your piece you asked God to forgive them. great write!
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Thanks writing about abuse for some reason is a popular write of mine. I appreciate you commenting.
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Okay I write about abuse quite a lot. Here are some links to some more that I have written. You can look them over if you wish.
Butterfly kisses (this isn't really about abuse but it is about the death of a child) http://allpoetry.com/poem/show/4902135
I am afraid http://allpoetry.com/poem/4902139
Why http://allpoetry.com/poem/4902137
For I exist http://allpoetry.com/poem/4895535
These are just some of them that I have written. But they are ones that I like. Hope that you like them as well. -
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You made me cry... I dont think I can say anything whcih would even do justice to this... Thankyou so much for sharing.. Thankyou
RF
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glad that you like this. I write about abuse quite a lot. You might say it is a favorite kind of write of mine. Dunno why just that it is.
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This was heartbreaking - it literally brought tears to my eyes, because it made me think of someone in particular - a fictional character, in fact, a soap opera character, but one with whom they did an abused storyline before, and i've never seen anything like it - there have been times that i've actually cried while this actor is on the screen because his story is so utterly heartbreaking, and you just want to hold him and promise him that you'll chase his demons away...
If you've suffered, as you wrote here, then trekkergirl, I am so sorry for all that you went through - and if you haven't, then I will applaud you for putting yourself in shoes like that, so brilliantly, and in the form of a prayer; you would think after living through atrocities that one would have no need nor care for religion and yet perhaps it helps.
Just finished watching an amazing film called "Taken" about what ends a father will go to to rescue his daughter when she is kidnapped for the sex slave industry... this poem hit home after watching that.
One tiny tiny thing;
"the smell of alchol," <-- alcohol
And i wasn't veen going to mention it, only i thought i should for your benefit - but let me say - this was amazing...
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i cried, very very very very very very awsome, i know this feeling
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Sad and all too true, a wonderfully emotional write.
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hm very emotional write and I enjoyed it very much love the over all idea of the piece thanks so much for your entry and best of luck to you in this contest and in the future.
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I know I've read this before but my comment isn't showing up for some reason. Anyway it is very strong and I'm sure it's molded your life.
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I remember the fear of potential blow-ups and violent behavior, should I deviate from what my stepfather deemed to be acceptable behavior. I could never please him, no matter how hard I tried. He would say, that I "didn't even try." He took a well-behaved, sweet natured young lady, who wasn't a bad person nor a problem child, and turned her into an empty shell. His idea of "discipline" was utter obedience to his every command. I felt like a slave to his whims, in order to avoid the verbal, mental, and emotional abuse. As a result of his "good parenting skills" that others praised him on, I ran away from home at 17, and with the idea of never coming back to live under his roof. Eventually I became self sufficient, but that was an awful road to travel. Now, at 33, 11 years married; (twice divorced) I have a daughter 15 years; son 13 yrs. Never was arrested, no tickets, home, car, insurance, bills, jobs and steady life, I say "Screw him!" I've earned my right to say far worse, but I'm trying to keep the comment box clean.
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believe me I really do understand right where you are coming from. I had a step father try and do similar things to me... however, I refused to let him... I am very opinionated. Hard headed. And when I am right... I don't back down. Life has changed. Mom is doing better now than she was... still drinks. But is no longer mean... course she doesn't have any kids at home nor does she go to the bars... she drinks at home.
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I'm glad to hear your mom is doing better, though it is sad that she still drinks. Like you, I was strong, independent, opinionated and worse, I would go round and round with my stepdad, my mom said it was like watching two rams trying to lock horns and kill each other. I may have been sweet natured, for the most part but I saved my "no more miss nice girl" side just for him. That's why I left. I couldn't take and wouldn't take his bs anymore. Even though he couldn't see it, I knew our constant "locking horns" was effecting the entire family. Life has certainly changed. With each goal I reach for myself, I remind myself that I did this without his help, encouragement or belittlement. It serves only to make me prouder. Better yet, at least my children aren't afraid to talk to me or confide in me. As it should be. I'm glad my kids and I have such an open and honest relationship, filled with trust.
I pray things continue to get better and better for you.
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There isn't much imagery to it but the flow is good and the message is one that needs to be shared. People need to realize that this happens much more than we'd care to admit. Great piece, congrats on the HM.
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I had a alcoholic parent, I know the fear and the pain, the walking on eggshells, trying to be invisible. Wonderful heartfelt prayer, thank you.
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I was never abused, just neglected to a great degree. I tried to commit suicide on more than one occasion ... when I was 16 I took my dad's meds ... still don't know what they were. Anyway I slept for almost 72 hours before anyone noticed I was missing and when my mom told the story weeks later, she said, "You were turning blue or green or some damned color" .... so caring. Whether it's abuse or neglect, there is still pain and fear to overcome. Fear of physical pain or abandonment ... I still wonder why. What did I do?
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Yeah I know how it feels to be forgotten about. After dad died my mom began drinking heavily again. She sometimes would get violent. My sister basically ran away into another life... which was fine if she hadn't lied all the way to do it. Mom spent all night at the bars and drank and drank.... she can be a mean drunk would come home and either cry all day boohoo waking me up to listen to her sad details of her sorry life on how this person said this and this person said that. She and my younger sister... who was like 16 or 17 years old would bar hop. Mom would get so jeoulous of her it wasn't funny. So and so looked at her... and that daughter took the guy I liked. They would fight constantly.
Anyway, I hate drunks. I don't drink. Refuse to be around it. When I began dating my now husband he drank. I informed him that IF he wanted to be around me... then he would give up the drink. He did. We have been married for almost 17 years. Oh can't say it hasn't been a struggle at times. He would like to drink but I keep telling him... that while I can't stop him from drinking... he is an adult after all I can make the decision on whether or not I have to be around someone who drinks. Since he know where I stand on that... which is more important to him... the drink or our relationship. So far the relationship has won out.
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A courageous write... filled with the spirit of caring and compassion... not for those who abuse but for those who have walked your path...
and a prayer for those who hurt...
Ken
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thanks for commenting on my poem. I think it turned out rather well and rather personal in a lot of ways.
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