Temptation

I need to figure out if the grass really is greener
Test the waters of my own level of comfort
Allow myself to live because I’ve always been a dreamer
Open my eyes to a new world around me

The feelings ARE there, but so is the wonder
The wondering, wandering, yearning need to explore
Explore my options; explore the world, without having to ponder
If I’m settling, falling, or running away

So many ‘what ifs’ make me wonder ‘what if’?
What if there’s something out there that I’m missing?
I’d never know and neither would you
If there was something better or nothing comparable

If this is to be, if there is nothing better
It’ll happen on its own and there won’t be a question
But there are still questions and concerns in my head
That may not be cured by time alone anymore

I may eat my words later and hate this moment of existence
But I feel like I’m trapped in this cage of unfinished business and feelings
The worry makes me weary, the fear makes me frazzled
I don’t want to fuck up but I need to know all of these things for sure

Are we for sure “it”?
Is the old catch-phrase not 100% accurate
The one that inevitably started this mess
It must have happened for a reason, but you’d never say

I’m still holding grudges, still unable to forget
I’m still questioning and wondering and unable to find answers
To thoughts and feelings that are rushing in my mind
And all of this temptation around me is putting me in a bind.